I don’t get the impression depression can be cured any more than autism can be. It’s all just a particular form of highly sensitive perception. Almost all the good art is lost on people who don’t get depressed. I can’t convey how pretty this music video is, but there are just droves of people on whom it is entirely lost. I don’t know what you have to do to receive the talent to make something like this, it boggles my mind.
There’s no real dignity to be found in appreciating the arts. Nobody really cares what you perceive. It won’t get you laid. You can’t pay the bills with it. And yet I wouldn’t give it up for a million dollars, a PhD or anything else really. I just have to think back to how the former Dutch prime minister Rutte goes to toppers in concert. What use is power, if this is your idea of a good time?
All of this will sound rather haughty, but I think it’s just important to remember this: You have to go to hell. You have to gaze at the world at dusk. You have to pay this price of being tortured, to be able to see true beauty.
I mean, you all notice what has happened to the normies by now, right? Their brains have just been completely captured by AI art. The algorithms are good enough at recombining stuff that already exists, for new stuff made by humans to have no added value left for them anymore. It’s just a complete loss of dignity.
My psychiatrist is now eager to get me on SSRIs, but I get the inescapable impression that I know the price I’ll pay for being reconnected to the masses. That’s what serotonin does, in all animals. It turns grasshoppers into locusts. It connects you to your own kind. But you pay a price for being well-connected.
Look. You can say I’m an asshole. Arrogant. Pretentious. But I really want you to remember at all times, that you have to accept and understand that you just inevitably have to pay a really high price for appreciating the arts.
The reason I explain this stuff is because people die on a regular basis, because they forget or never figured out what I’m explaining here to you. You just pay a price for having a richer internal world. That’s just how it works.
The normies envy you, it’s why they’re mean. Nine out of ten things you perceive are just invisible to them. It works like this with everything for them. But if you can see it, then it’s part of you. I’ve said too much already.
It’s weird man. I started keto just when you started eating shellfish.
I went on SSRI a couple months ago. It’s hard to tell if I’m going to the gym and working out and dieting well, with plenty of energy due to the drug? I know there’s a price to pay. I intended for it to be temporary. But life is good man. Based and SSRI pilled.
Yes, SSRIs kill that. It can be permanent, even after you stop them, depending on dose and duration. It is a trade off; it can be worth it; if one is desperate enough it is a gift even with the loss. Taking them doesn’t turn one into normie, however; just a different kind of freak.
I thought you didn’t have conventional depression, so you might get the downsides (which for guys includes trouble with sex) without the help. They are better suited to women.
I’ll just leave this here:
https://www.midwesterndoctor.com/p/the-evidence-ssri-antidepressants
Search his Substack for more on this topic
Take care fren
SSRIs will mess you up. Hell, to get off, if you can. They also numb your emotions, so you just don’t care anymore. So, your wife backs the car into the garage hitting something, on SSRIs it does not bother her, like it ordinarily would. And sexual side effects, usually loss of interest, but rarely makes one hypersexual, very hypersexual. And your suicide rate goes up on SSRIs. Please don’t do it.
dude, don’t give up on the dha curing depression. i started taking ~1200mg omega-3 fish oil pills right after your blog post and within ~3 days i felt completely different. i also started taking creatine pills @ 5mg/day, so they might have helped too. either way, i probably wasn’t as deficient as you were as a meat eater, so it might take longer for you to feel the effects, but it beats the hell out of the ssri’s i was on for ~a month or two in my 20s (they made me hyper-aggro and manic).
and, to be honest, my depression isn’t entirely cerebral. take your worldview, which i mostly share, and add: my father’s dying and i have to take over all his financial responsibilities; i have two school age kids that have all their demands on my time; i run my own business that makes our family’s money; and oh yeah i have incurable blood cancer that can be “managed” with drugs that leave me feeling like shit ~25% of the time, and i’ll be gone well before my work is done. (just workout and change your diet, bro! no, i have the bone marrow of a 90 year old and this shit relentlessly lowers my lympocyte and neutrophil counts, forever, til i die. well that last part isn’t true, the current set of drugs are losing effectiveness, so i just burned another line of treatment.)
the point of this isn’t really to compare suffering, we all have our own hells, mine no worse than yours. the point is: DON’T GIVE UP. (also i needed to vent some, sorry. i don’t like whining to people in real life.) but seriously, i was pretty close to taking the gas pipe or checking myself into a psych ward for a few weeks like you, but alas i have too many people depending on me. the fish oil and/or creatine, though, seems to have totally changed my outlook and i can bear these burdens with a far better outlook.
I’m very sorry about your father and terribly sorry about your illness.
I know four people (one with brain cancer, one with a bizarre kind of breast cancer, one with nasal cavity cancer, and one with recurring and advanced ovarian cancer) who have been close to death several times but have survived with their illness for decades and are still alive and in okay shape, to the amazement of everyone including their doctors. There are a lot of people with low lymphocytes and neutrophils these days and so there is reason to hope there will be more treatments. As you say, there are people depending on you.
It looks like the fish oil may be helping you (https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S1550413121002333?via%3Dihub)(“Peroxidation of n-3 and n-6 polyunsaturated fatty acids in the acidic tumor environment leads to ferroptosis-mediated anticancer effects”)(Cell Metabolism, 3 August 2021), although maybe it is mainly helpful with solid cancers? Rintrah could read this with greater understanding and say if that is the case.
not long ago peroxides were known as pro-carcinogen..of course in the new upside-down world carcinogens are good for humans. its like treating cancers with mustard oil derivates wich are carcinogens themselves. exchange one cancer with another. https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/abs/pii/S0891584907004935
all fish oils contain peroxides. zombiedoctors on big pharma payroll claim its healthy without telling you that you are ingesting cancerogens. fuck them all!https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC3453758/
Video was nice, but I don’t think I appreciate it like you do. Feel like a subhuman for that.
Maybe try Duffy’s stuff if you like. Their youtube is duffylmao and they have a way of opening up the capacity for synaethesia that is muted in almost everybody just by having their stuff be watched.
>Their youtube is duffylmao
Thanks, I’ll check them out.
You are being a conceited faggot. No, the normies don’t envy you, they don’t particularly care about you either. Get your head out of your ass, the world doesn’t revolve around you.
And if you can’t spit in the face of the ugly japanese, you can’t appreciate the arts. I put in the effort to have good taste, differentiate good art from bad art. Have you?
> I put in the effort to have good taste, differentiate good art from bad art.
Dat avatar tho.
I love you Mr Snuggles!
It’s a video of an aspiring rap “artist” moping around and showing off his guns, and I couldn’t understand a word that he was mumbling.
For true art spend some looking at the sculptures of Michelangelo, the Renaissance paintings of Raphael, listen to the magnificent symphonies of Beethoven.
I forgot, you are incapable of appreciating classical music and you’ve described how people that do are old, pretentious, and haughty.
beethoven is the goat. there are some (reasonable, imo) claims that later beethoven works started to anticipate jazz. just like “real” jazz, everyone hated it. lol.
Autism + SSRIs + ADHD drugs = School Shooter
PS – your psychiatrist is hot.
You should fuck her.
So true!
Concur with everyone saying don’t take SSRIs. I took them in my mid-20’s and my depression and anxeity went away, basically to the extent that they dulled my emotions. When I went off them after about a year, and I got through the withdrawal period (which was very nasty), it felt like I had come back to life.
The guy in the video was wearing upper class outdoors clothing. Not just upper upper middle (which would be REI or Patagonia), but actually upper class; that is, what grandpa wore when he sailed and which was still in the back of the closet since rich people of that type don’t waste money. That reduced the edginess of the video significantly.
My friend, your thoughts are still not healthy. As Tolle would put it “you’re too identified with your sad story” – or your “sad” perception of the state of the world, whatever.
https://talentdevelop.com/articles/ETOD.html
You have so much potential.
Listen to this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q_WxW3_SG9U
You can try this method:
https://m.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLJKrMZJE_UwvXwzcjQEfLuI_FDVKpd2Fq
Be aware, Raduga’s methods are top notch, but he’s still a materialist. Didnt like his “The Phase” book. Too much selling himself – could be jewish.
You can delete my older post which is “Awaiting moderation”.
Thanks for sharing. Here’s a video I think you’ll like if you’re not already familiar https://youtu.be/85hc7wp5rTg?si=LWeT0Gucd5Rp1JnD
Personally found Sertraline and Citalopram to be the least soul sucking and still felt like me but just a bit numbed out. Prozac and Paroxetine didn’t work for me, literally felt like an annoying extrovert on them.
I had to titrate extremely slowly btw it’s not the same fir everyone though. Shrinks honestly be wary of what they tell you. For instance, a study found that 5mg of Prozac outperformed 40mg due to lack of side effects. The receptor occupancy of these drugs is extremely high even at small doses. You could possibly ask for a liquid version to measure yourself a smaller dose with less side effect potential.
I read a study years back which I annoyingly can’t find now since Google sold its soul that people with autism become more socially withdrawn on SSRIs. Again though, they all vary in their effect with some turning me very extroverted for example, which just isn’t me. They do seem to work for a hell of a lot of people though, just not me unfortunately.
You’re lucky that Paroxetine/Paxil didn’t work for you, since withdrawal from it is the worst. You can have brain zaps for a full year after stopping the stuff, and worse depression than ever, and as a bonus sleep terrors, where you have sleep paralysis and can’t open your eyes or move at all but are convinced that there is something terrible sitting next to your bed (the modern cure for sleep terrors is to take SSRIs). GlaxoSmithKline lied like crazy about the withdrawal problems, leading to lawsuits. At the same time, it is very effective for some people, especially for social phobia (hence your extroversion, which is a plus if a person is starting from a painfully phobic place), so if one is desperate it might be worth trying, knowing that it will permanently kill all pleasure in poetry and novels.
Yeah I cold turkeyed Paroxetine after a year and it was the worst. Lasted for months and months and had to eventually go on Sertraline. Tbh I could still appreciate novels, music and meditate etc on Sertraline, didn’t feel too different personality wise. Some of them change you into a different person altogether. And unfortunately some of their well known side-effects I’m still dealing with.
Another problem with SSRIs is that they eventually downregulate your serotonin receptors, causing you to massively crave refined junk carbohydrates leading to weight gain. Long term nearly everyone gets fat on them. So you might not die from suicidal depression but you’ll die 20 years prematurely due to complications from type 2 diabetes.
So there’s always a trade-off with these Big Pharma drugs. Another example of this “trade-off”: my cousin has Crohn’s disease so he takes drugs that are heavy immune system suppressants (because Crohn’s is autoimmune). Long story short, he almost died last Summer from sepsis and pneumonia, was in an induced coma in the ICU. Only in his 20s. Thankfully he’s back in good health again.
Interestingly, there’s an atypical antidepressant called bupropion that tends to massively INCREASE** libido in many who take it and DOESN’T cause weight gain. But unfortunately (from Wiki) “bupropion has the highest incidence of insomnia of all second-generation antidepressants, apart from desvenlafaxine.”
** Some exceptions, read the posts about it on Reddit if anyone is interested.
>Another problem with SSRIs is that they eventually downregulate your serotonin receptors, causing you to massively crave refined junk carbohydrates leading to weight gain. Long term nearly everyone gets fat on them. So you might not die from suicidal depression but you’ll die 20 years prematurely due to complications from type 2 diabetes.
Yeah this is what I am afraid of, that the body will just compensate.
The omega 3s from the mackerel I’m eating stand a better chance of bailing me out.
I’m probably a super LSWM by your standards and I 100% agree about the rich internal world – consumerist external world tradeoff. Real human connection only works if you can either actually listen to each other or pretend you are listening to each other. Type 1 is just way too rare and type 2 requires a lobotomy. It’s something like the MoRT theory that the Un-denial website obsesses about.
My music recommendations are the british folk composer Matt Elliott, the post-corecore visual albums of Vancouver-area youtuber Duffylmao and this one Korean vocaloid track from 2012:
https://youtu.be/oIeZP06uOT4
RR, I don’t know your particular situation so I can be wrong.
But pls let nature be your cure (herbs, sunlight, beach, meadow…), not some artificial molecule-modified drugs.
get some rest, let your mind and body healed.
wish you well.
@ radagast..Serotonin has nothing to do with depression. dopamine is what makes us feel good but dopamine analogs or uptake inhibitors are addictive and cant be sold so they tell the serotonine story wich is bullshit. serotonine is a vasoconstrictor reducing bloodflow to the brain and prevent you from getting a boner. also it does enhance your estrogen level. ssri are useless and make you wierd. eat real food, learn to cook and stop popping pills and unnatural powders.
i just made 30liters of elderberry flower syrup. thats a better antidepressant then those nasty chemicals..diluted with icecold soda and a dash lemonjuice-best lemonade ever!
I recently got into analyzing my genome (downloaded from 23andme) using ChatGPT.
ChatGPT wrote a perl script for me to extract my genes matching certain “genes of interest”. Then I ask it, for example, “give me the list of diabetes gene SNPs” or “give me list of SNPs responsible for mental resilience”.
Then I ask it to analyze my genes that are in these genetic positions (SNPs)
It turns out that my genes determine a lot about my personality and character.
Genes as destiny.
Why am I saying this? You might want to do the same and analyze your genes.
Genes responsible for likelihood of depression:
rs25531 — Located in SLC6A4 gene (serotonin transporter); affects gene expression and stress sensitivity.
5-HTTLPR — Not a SNP but a repeat polymorphism in SLC6A4; short allele linked to higher depression risk under stress.
rs1360780 — Located in FKBP5 gene; strongly associated with altered stress hormone response and childhood trauma interaction.
rs3800373 — Also in FKBP5; linked to HPA axis regulation and cortisol feedback.
rs6198 — Found in NR3C1 gene (glucocorticoid receptor); affects stress hormone sensitivity.
rs4680 — COMT gene variant (Val158Met); affects dopamine breakdown in the prefrontal cortex, influencing emotional regulation.
rs6265 — BDNF gene (Val66Met); affects activity-dependent BDNF release important for mood and neural plasticity.
rs10514299 — TMEM161B gene; identified in large-scale GWAS for major depressive disorder.
rs12552 — RERE gene; involved in neural development and associated with depression risk in some populations.
rs12415800 — LHPP gene; associated with major depressive disorder especially in East Asian populations.
rs4478037 — ASTN1 gene; neurodevelopmental gene found in depression GWAS.
rs301806 — GRM3 gene; codes for a glutamate receptor, potentially impacting mood and cognition.
“Anatomy is destiny.” – Sigmund Freud.
Literally the ONE thing that raddled, neurotic, closeted, Jewish grifter actually got right.
Perfect username Edmund Bernays’ left bollock .
I don’t think I want 23andme to have my genome in a database.
“I don’t think I want 23andme to have my genome in a database.”
I was thinking the same thing, and why I refuse to ever take an ancestry DNA test, despite being really curious about it and wanting to for years. Also, aren’t they facing bankruptcy and there was talk about some Chinese company acquiring the data. It could be used for all sorts of nefarious activity, such as unauthorized cloning, and ethnically targeted bio warfare. All those terms of agreement, privacy rights, security measures, etc., that you originally consented to and felt protected by, become null and void once the company no longer exists and the data changes hands.
Plus the state can use it to track you, or your family/relatives, or your decedents, or any of your relatives’ decedents, forever. . .
At the moment, this is being used to track criminals: https://www.abc.net.au/triplej/programs/hack/genetic-genealogy-case-paves-way-for-use-in-australia/11267728
Of course, who is a ‘criminal’ or not is a matter for the state to decide. . .
Nowadays, the Stasi don’t have to break into your apartment to steal your underpants to build a scent database for dogs, not when ‘simple Jack’, your dopey cousin, has gone and provided his DNA to the state for nothing more than intellectual masturbation.
I meant ‘descendants’.
Although DNA can identify the dead too.
I deleted my genome from its databse after downloading it
Igor, please (please) look into fisetin for your blood sugar. My A1c was 5.7 to 5.8 for years and years (yes, I know that is fine). I’ve been taking fisetin for a little over five months (600 mg. a day for about two months, and now 600 mg. every fifth day) and it is now 5.2. It is really safe stuff (the Mayo clinic study used mega doses and there was no problem). I wasn’t taking it for my blood sugar but this happened; it also totally cured my dental problems; my X-rays show the change; my dentist was stunned. It seems like something that some people (not all) are missing. And even if it doesn’t affect your blood sugar it will help protect your kidneys from the damage caused by diabetes.
https://www.nature.com/articles/s41401-023-01106-6
OT:
My genes favor Karen
Karen, I might be flying out to your neck of the woods soon.
Would you like to get together for lunch or coffee or something?
Just to talk.
Please let me know.
I have an unquenchable desire for autistic girls like yourself.
(Please don’t resist me)
https://youtu.be/svZdNI8aQns?si=Y_k7U0y6XGhcQFps
“My genes favor Karen.”
“I have an unquenchable desire for autistic girls like yourself.”
I know you’re a natural comedian, but seriously, you sound like a vampire bat about to swoop in on its kill, targeting that O negative bloodline as if your life depended on it. You sure you’re not a Jew? Oh yeah, I forgot, you are, but not a bad one, right?
Someone posted something somewhere that they love the Jews, but that they never trust them.
I think that’s good advice.
>I think that’s good advice.
It is *excellent* advice
Btw Big Bird,
I recently wrote here that my paternal grandmother was a card carrying member of the Daughters of the American Revolution.
Apparently I misremembered.
I asked my old man about it and he told me she was a card carrying member of the Daughters of the *Confederacy.*
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/United_Daughters_of_the_Confederacy
Hoping this puts your mind at ease.
(And Fucko’s too)
>I know you’re a natural comedian, but seriously, you sound like a vampire bat about to swoop in on its kill, targeting that O negative bloodline as if your life depended on it. You sure you’re not a Jew?
One more thing – I am RH negative.
https://youtu.be/FEM-80qPJHo?si=DDkhnHiPYbwyzUyD
Make of that what you will.
(I’m still trying to figure myself out)
Wow now my mind is spinning, thanks
The issue of RH negative bloodlines is one of those curious mysteries among conventional scientists.
There is no good explanation for why RH negative bloodlines ever came to be.
It makes no evolutionary sense
This curiosity has fostered many mystical and theoretical speculations about “aliens” and whatnot.
https://youtu.be/7oFQ7GR3ZRY?si=EHrVTbFg97JJbViM
(Looking at you, Karen. Hubba, hubba)
It seems to me that the issue of RH negative blood, with all the attendant mystical speculations is right up Radagast’s alley!!!
Rad, please do a deep dive into this rabbit hole and set us all straight!!!
“One more thing – I am RH negative.”
Me too. I had my blood type tested at elementary school, it was outside, close to summer break, they had tables set outside, and they tested the whole school, it was supposed to be educational, for science, and the young nurses taking the samples half jokingly told me that it meant that I was an alien.
>swoop in on its kill, targeting that O negative bloodline
Ok one last thing since you mentioned Type O Negative.
I dislike your attempt to drive a wedge between me and Karen.
(Are you fat, by any chance?)
Karen’s piety and piousness has a root.
I’m just like Peter Steele fr, fr
(Without the huge schlong, I have a micropenis)
(Yes, I’ve been told this song is blasphemous)
Forgive her – for she knows not what she does
A cross upon her bedroom wall
From grace she will fall
An image burning in her mind
And between her thighs
A dying god-man full of pain
When will you cum again?
Before him beg to serve or please
On your back or knees
No forgiveness for her sins
She prefers punishment
Would you suffer eternally
Or internally? Ah
For her lust
She’ll burn in hell
Her soul done medium well
All through mass manual stimulation
Salvation
Corpus Christi
She needs
Corpus Christi
Corpus Christi
Corpus Christi
She needs
Corpus Christi
Corpus Christi
Body of Christ
She needs
Body of Christ
Body of christ
https://youtu.be/3sMALbhJU6M?si=3haVCWb7HkerNIcq
“I dislike your attempt to drive a wedge between me and Karen. ”
I’m not trying to drive a wedge. And no, I’m not fat, nor have I ever been. I’m extremely healthy, good looking, and athletic. Always have been. Not bragging, just stating a fact. But she’s married and I distinctly recall you also mentioning that you are married, though maybe you no longer are. And I despise marital infidelity, even in jest. That’s all. Also your comments about rape were super creepy. Most women would be instinctively repelled by it.
>But she’s married and I distinctly recall you also mentioning that you are married, though maybe you no longer are. And I despise marital infidelity, even in jest. That’s all. Also your comments about rape were super creepy. Most women would be instinctively repelled by it.
Hahaha.!!!
I’m not married nor do I expect to be
Whether you like it or not, the boys are coming together.
And yes, when shit hits the fan, like some Mad Max dystopia.
I will be there.
Waiting for Karen
what you perceive as art is hell. you’re in hell because your thoughts and words are like black magic. change it if you want to get out of hell. be impeccable with your word and thoughts.
I give you all the criminally underrated Canadian group “I Mother Earth” (no doubt familiar to “Extinction Rebellion” or whatever weird shit Rad is into)
Part 1 – The Mothers
https://youtu.be/InNiFtwma60?si=Mjc_cDZg0-EhyB0G
Listen to the mothers
A surreal sound of eight-legged groove
A serving of today’s…
Psycadellicasy
And when you embrace this sonic mural
We will be together, our spirits
Mad survivors
Part 2 – Levitate
https://youtu.be/ZRi6nhp8J40?si=nBcnx7GZVDWAudin
Feel heavy…
Once felt it…
Hard
Question an answer for a thousand days
Give birth to the earth and let it drift away
Open and flow, just swinging forever
Making love to the ground ’cause it just feels better
Ain’t easy
Drink it in
Think a while…
Spit
There is shining and darkness, share a day
There was man on a cross or was it just a fake?
Even in shame you can’t hide your growth
Like a butterfly flies, he’s sinking like a stone
Sinking like a stone
The killing sun, it hurts my eyes
And comes hard onto my skin
And as I find shade from tree to tree
I live to learn, to dig down deep
I feel the pain and love the hurt
I don’t complain
Pain
Trancing in the grass, suckin’ off the world
When you’re full of it, shrug, feel fortunate, then go
Where levitation lives and aggravation grows
Sleeping’s too hard on the thinking bone
Intensity is what I need to suffer for the pleasure
It’s heat, head, life and death living all together
In a small room full of me and my friends
Trying to find the means to justify the end
Justify the end
Ah the end, yeah
Ah the end
The killing sun, it hurts my eyes
And comes hard onto my skin
And as I find shade from tree to tree
I live to learn, to dig down deep
I feel the pain and love the hurt
I don’t complain
Take the ground beneath you
Take the ground beneath you
Part 3 – Rain Will Fall
(Whoever posted Santana here recently will like this one)
https://youtu.be/fmxbaHXOXGw?si=CpKRxEu0eddkJ1pv
Lookin’ at the world go
Trying to understand
Electric wind blows
Keeps blowing like a demon fan
A symphony of hatred
Blowin’ angst off an immaculate stage
As tranquil is an ocean
Before a storm – like a silent play
Chanting thunder
Dance naked and I feel so wired
It’s a personal voodoo
Running through my veins like blood
With inhibition long gone
And no real sense of space or time
Weird vibrations
Don’t know my right from wrong!
Rain will fall
Rain will fall
Will fall
Poetry in motion
Both rolling, both getting me high
A shiver went through me
A tidal wave I felt inside
It is an animal instinct
That takes us over and we must survive
But four brothers make the Mother
Four brothers form as One
Rain will fall
Rain will fall
Will fall
Rain will fall
Down, down, down
Lookin’ at the world go
Trying to understand
Electric wind blows
Keeps blowing like a demon fan
A symphony of hatred
Blowin’ angst off an immaculate stage
As tranquil is an ocean
Before what lies is underway
Rain will fall
Rain will fall
Will fall
Rain will fall
Down, down, down
Rain will fall
Will fall
https://twitter.com/dylanoa4/status/1930617687505330486?s=46
“Will wonders never cease?”
…is a question that has been rolling around my noggin lately
I had a dream last night
About a former Jewish girlfriend.
A thicc lower body with a dainty upper body.
I won’t bother to explain.
But those girls are the BEST
Ok, I will explain
A girl with thick thighs and calves who also has petite arms and shoulders and tits is MY WORLD
Any and all girls reading here should make it plain to their sisters that men such as myself are judging them and their “friends”
Ah yes those jewish Exes.
I once had a Jewish girlfriend as well, who told me she was from Canada, though I later found out she’d actually been born in Kazakhstan. I met her in Israel. She had a certain fire—restless, full of life. She actually taught me how to live. Crszy girl. Crszy times. We were both young and a bit reckless. It’s been ten years now, but those days still come back to me from time to time. Feels like a different life altogether.
>It’s been ten years now, but those days still come back to me from time to time. Feels like a different life altogether.
Yeah, you know how it be.
And she wasn’t even close to my top girl.
But she was certainly memorable
Ratty, do you DO anything? You might try doing something. It’s up to you to figure out WHAT to do, but I think you need to DO more. Purposeful action. See if that works.
The greedy ape horde can destroy everything beautiful but they can never have what God didn’t grant them. They’re playing a game they can never win
I love you all.
But it’s beyond my control
https://youtu.be/oRxe9elGcMU?si=vRpIltdmgCJQcG4g
I wish for you that you have success and I don’t want to be the spoilsport, but from my research the SSRIs can only help light cases, and it’s very probability that side effects like Placebo, bio-rhythm, positive changes in the environment or, other external causes are the real “success” of SSRIs.
I could tell you a lot more about side-effects. I also tried stuff without SSRI, selektive dopamin/noradrenalin and such. Same result.
My advice: If you are a hardcore-depressive … forget it.
But I could be wrong, maybe it helps.
I’ve mentioned before that I was once a musician
One of my first music theory lessons was the 7 modes of the diatonic scale.
They are:
Ionian Mode
Dorian Mode
Phrygian Mode
Lydian Mode
Mixolydian Mode
Aeolian Mode
Locrian Mode
From a young age I was instinctively drawn towards the Lydian mode.
(Lydian mode has a sharped 4th)
But the subjective experience of this mode feels more like a heavenly indeterminacy. It’s a major mode, so it is not sad. But the sharped 4th gives the mode a sort of tension that is hard to describe to those who can’t feel it. It might be described as “longing” or some German word with a million syllables.
The Lydian mode has been used in short bursts in various pop songs, but Joe Satriani’s “Flying In A Blue Dream” is the only track I’m aware of that is purely Lydian (with a brief Blues interlude).
https://youtu.be/SINl5JY7LhI?si=yVmUItPNxcKLso5V
If anyone who listens to this “gets the vibe” they will know me.
Hell, might as through this one into the mix
https://youtu.be/tIB1h9vA_Mk?si=LZiiO53TYfFB8QI2
Fleetwood Mac “Sara” is another great example of Lydian mode
https://youtu.be/KOVyBhVsOV0?si=u_BTUl2pu0pmz26g
I’d like to study music theory. Is there any particular book or video that you’d recommend to get started?
My original learning was haphazard, and then I went to college for further instruction (don’t ask)
If you are not already familiar with Rick Beato, I can’t recommend him enough:
https://youtu.be/O4IJnSTS84A?si=5acP4yTOsqjEXIwT
There are tons of instructional videos on his channel, but he offers a course which I’m confident is quite thorough and clear:
https://rickbeato.com/
(The music theory module is probably perfect, but the rest of his stuff is mostly geared to guitarists)
Thanks. I’ll look into it. I play guitar, so that should be perfect.
By the way, I didn’t mean to disrespect you in previous comments. Same goes for everyone else here I’ve had comment exchanges with. I just write off the cuff, what I’m thinking at the time, mostly just for fun, but to also provoke personal growth and inner reflection, for all parties involved, even if my style comes off as confrontational at times.
Also check out Tommaso Zillio. I’ve done most of his Chord theory course and some of his Modes course. He also has tons of free stuff on utube and on his website.
https://www.youtube.com/@MusicTheoryForGuitar
Radagast, the evidence that the psychology and psychiatry industries actually help cure anything is kind of thin on the ground once you start looking into it.
I tried SSRIs for depression; it didn’t take long before I started to understand what they mean by ‘suicidal ideation.’ I dumped them fast – I’ll be dead soon enough.
I’ve dealt with my 30-year depression by refusing as much as possible to dwell on how I feel. Instead I try to keep busy. Learn guitar, study Chinese, write a book, go for a walk, cook something new and weird, get a bus driver’s license, go to Mongolia or Serbia, apply for a new job, talk to kids, whatever. Maybe a cop-out, but it works to some extent.