I don’t have much to say on this, but I did think it’s worth sharing.
When you have a society where your emergency rooms can’t deal with the number of children trying to kill themselves or overdosing on drugs, it’s a sign that your society is fundamentally broken. You’re not going to solve that by raising the marginal tax rate, or some other minor policy tweak.
The type of society we live in today is just fundamentally not compatible with human psychology. But that’s what people don’t want to hear. If we spent the past 10,000 years or so harvesting crops and firewood, occasionally sending the men out to hunt or fish in little boats on the ocean, interspersed with numerous religious festivals and the occasional war with neighboring tribes, then maybe that’s what we’re designed to do.
I don’t want to write a whole sperglord manifesto here about how we need to return to living as nomadic hunter-gatherers. You can just look at the 60’s and 70’s and you’ll notice young people back then were generally happier too. If you doubt that, consider that we didn’t have overcrowded emergency rooms full of depressed children back then. The children are not depressed because they suffer transphobia. They’re trans because they’re depressed.
We evolved in small mostly ethnically homogeneous rural communities. And that’s how we lived up until a few decades ago. That’s also the only way for us to have a future. Most of the world’s megacities will become uninhabitable due to the urban heat island effect. We will also need to have far more people working in agriculture. That will require the revival of rural communities.
You can maximize food production for different variables. In the Western world, we basically maximized calories per unit of labor. When using cows, pigs, sheep, goats and chickens to produce food, you get high yields, with little effort. This allows the people who own the means of production to earn a lot of money: They don’t need a lot of employees.
The first highland clearances in Scotland, where poor farmers were chased from their ancestral lands by their clan leaders, were to have cattle graze on the lands where they formerly grew their own crops. It was simply easier for Scottish elites to make money with animals, than to let the poor farm the land. People lost their lands and were thus driven into the cities.
The same process is happening around the world today. Economic structures force farmers to abandon their lands and move into big dense cities. Even our modern method of growing crops is profoundly wasteful. Consider this: We know that you increase the yield of crops like maize when you plant them beneath trees, especially when your cereal crops are at risk of heatwaves. You can then have the products of the trees, as well as the maize. So why don’t we do this? The answer is simple: Try driving a big combine harvester through a field of trees. That doesn’t work.
If children and teenagers became depressed and developed eating disorders because they’re picking apples off trees or digging in the dirt, you would wonder how our species got through the past 10,000 years. In reality, this is the sort of thing humans like to do. Most people want a stress-free, simple life, but it’s stigmatized. In Africa working the land is used as a punishment for children.
What’s prestigious is doing a PhD, what’s looked down upon is using your physical body for your job. We sit in chairs and then we spend a few hours every week compensating for it in the gym, focused on a single muscle group, carefully pre-loading and post-loading with supplements so that none of our effort is in vain.
And as I have sought to explain before, humans are just very easy to manipulate by making things prestigious. People spend their days studying some arcane subject matter that doesn’t interest a single soul who isn’t paid to care about it, because that’s what they’re taught success looks like.
The nice thing is that addressing the climate crisis requires the same solutions as addressing the suicidality crisis. You will need to reverse the “progress” of the past 200 years. People need to return to ethnically homogeneous rural communities, they need to return to working the land, they need to build their own houses by hand and they need to return to developing rich traditions and oral legends. Mysticism needs to drive a wooden stake through the heart of reason.
I’m also miserable. At 28 years old my life is an abject failure. As a young child I developed OCD and Tourettes Syndrome (my current major “tic” is eye and cheek twitching, but in the past my tics involved making humming and grunting sounds, shoulder jerking etc.). At 16 I developed bad social anxiety, and at 24 my psychiatrist diagnosed me with Asperger’s. I also have severe internet addiction. As a result of these psychiatric disorders I dropped out of college after 5 years of constantly failing exams and having to repeat years. After lockdowns ended I eventually got a part time job in McDonald’s and still live with my parents becausy my country has some of the most expensive rents in the world due to a chronic housing shortage. Because of my autism and anxiety I cannot relate to my co-workers in McDonald’s. Never had a girlfriend and still a virgin. This chronic loneliness is now causing me depression. And because of reading your blog I now feel guilt over how much animal suffering and environmental destruction is caused by McDonald’s.
Despite all this, I try and remain hopeful for the future. Your blog has convinced me to try psychedelics. I think that they will really help me. So, a couple of questions for you, if you don’t mind:
1) Should I take psilocybin or mescaline first? I plan on trying both. From reading your blog posts it seems that mescaline is less likely to give you a bad trip. Also seems that mescaline is better for social anxiety, whereas psilocybin is better for depression and addiction?
2) Since I have no friends I will be tripping alone. There is a big park near my house with forests and gardens, beside a beach. Do you think that this is a suitable location for a beginner? As a precaution, I will only take a small dose for my first time.
3) Do you recommend music during the trip? I want to listen to The Dark Side Of The Moon.
Well let’s start with the questions first.
>Should I take psilocybin or mescaline first?
Hard to say. Probably psilocybin. Mescaline can last 12 hours if you take a big dose. Psilocybin just lasts a few hours, you should be back to Earth fast.
>Since I have no friends I will be tripping alone. There is a big park near my house with forests and gardens, beside a beach. Do you think that this is a suitable location for a beginner? As a precaution, I will only take a small dose for my first time.
Again, hard to say. I used to have no problem tripping with normies around. These days tripping with normies around makes me anxious.
>Do you recommend music during the trip? I want to listen to The Dark Side Of The Moon.
Yeah it can be nice to have music during the come-up, especially when you take a low dose.
>I’m also miserable. At 28 years old my life is an abject failure. As a young child I developed OCD and Tourettes Syndrome (my current major “tic” is eye and cheek twitching, but in the past my tics involved making humming and grunting sounds, shoulder jerking etc.). At 16 I developed bad social anxiety, and at 24 my psychiatrist diagnosed me with Asperger’s. I also have severe internet addiction. As a result of these psychiatric disorders I dropped out of college after 5 years of constantly failing exams and having to repeat years.
Yeah all of this stuff tends to go hand in hand. I knew a guy with tics like that, eye twitching, he seemed pretty good at suppressing it, but it’s like a symptom of some underlying problem, a brain that has endured too much stress or something.
>After lockdowns ended I eventually got a part time job in McDonald’s and still live with my parents becausy my country has some of the most expensive rents in the world due to a chronic housing shortage. Because of my autism and anxiety I cannot relate to my co-workers in McDonald’s. Never had a girlfriend and still a virgin. This chronic loneliness is now causing me depression. And because of reading your blog I now feel guilt over how much animal suffering and environmental destruction is caused by McDonald’s.
I just don’t get it.
How does working at McDonald’s benefit you exactly? Do your parents kick you out if you quit?
I dunno, I’ve probably written about this before. The post-industrial society is a kind of inversion of beauty, goodness and truth, where the abundance of resources and the lack of consequences for stupidity and dishonesty lead the mediocre, sociopathic and arrogant to thrive. Anyone with a soul tends to be ground down in a society like this.
I mean you can just look at fertility rates. Most Koreans, most Japanese, most Italians, don’t reproduce. They have huge suicide rates and millions of NEETs. But in places like Nigeria and Niger, the average woman has 6 kids.
What has Korea contributed to the world? What has Italy contributed to the world? What has Japan contributed to the world? What have Nigeria and Niger delivered?
This process has been ongoing for at least a century, probably two.
It is a kakistocracy. A lot of LSWMs will say “due to all the brown people in our country”, but intelligent women had a big wave after the 1st world war, where they just refused to marry and reproduce. It’s the same with the Brönte sisters, only one ended up marrying.
This problem has been going on for a long time, I’m the descendant of the sort of white trash who had far more children than they should have had myself. My great-grandpa just put all his kids in an orphanage when his wife died, didn’t want to take care of them by himself.
And you could say “Well Cardi B. and Lizzo are very creative, whereas LSWMs just complain anonymously on their blogs”.
And the answer to that is that yes, they seem creative, because confident people just produce a lot of work. Their confidence makes them willing to be seen. And they’re confident, because they live in a society that teaches them that they are the epitome of what a human being is supposed to be.
But if you look at what it actually is, it is all a banality, devoid of anything interesting. What they produce, is what goes on in their minds.
On the other hand, consider Emily Dickinson. We know she was a great poet. But she was a typical femcel. Shy, insecure, anxious. People didn’t really know what went on within her mind, the depths of her soul, until after her death. Within her own lifetime, someone like her can just not achieve fame and success.
So I’d love to say that I have some sort of solution for you, that would allow you to thrive. But you’re only going to thrive in this society, if you are a bad person. Your failure to thrive, is just a sign that you must have some sort of redeeming value as a human being.
In this society, your success is just a symptom of your mediocrity. It suggests you produce banalities that appeal to dumb people, it suggests that you may have no moral compass, it suggests you may be a liar.
This society rewards evil. And when I say evil, I don’t mean serial killers or satanists. I mean Kardashians. I mean the absence of any redeeming qualities. Evil is not a “team”, it’s not guided by some alternative view of how the world should be, it doesn’t strive for its own utopia. It’s a complete banality, a void.
I know who the good people are. I’ve seen them, I’ve met them. They’re almost invisible.
There’s good reason to think that the Bronte girls died young due to drinking graveyard water; the whole family was poisoned by it. Plus privy leakage. It was a really terrible layout of toxin sources and leaching systems. Maybe if they weren’t so sickly they would have married.
“How does working at McDonald’s benefit you exactly? Do your parents kick you out if you quit?”
Yea, you get kicked out if you don’t get a job or contribute, no matter how fucked up in the head you are. I was a NEET for a period but my Mum had zero empathy for my situation and threw me out. Don’t think it did me any good tbh.
Can’t you people just rob an art gallery or something?
I mean, if your parents make you work at McDonalds to avoid getting kicked out onto the street, how much worse can it get?
The Earth belongs to everyone. If you did not inherit physical space to grow crops, find a billionaire and figure out how to rob them.
That’s unironically what I did.
Just invent something.
Rob an art gallery.
Kidnap someone.
Buy puts on a company and spread rumors about it, pretend to be a whistleblower to a newspaper or something.
Apply for a loan online with a fake ID, for a fake bank account that you bought with monero.
There’s a million routes.
If you work at fucking mcdonalds, you don’t have a lot to lose.
Haha I reckon I am criminally insane tbh I’m always thinking up shit like that. Most of my ideas of getting rich quick are all illegal. There’s just too many barriers via the legal route.
Instead I’m chained to a desk job that I hate and is aging me like crazy. My friend is on benefits including housing benefits and lives quite nicely I reckon. Maybe that is the route, just bleed the state. Or I could easily sell Coke and other drugs on the darknet and make a fortune but I just can’t be bothered.
How did you rob a billionaire btw?
Yeah I’m going to explain that here and ensure that I get a free ticket to pound-you-in-the-ass prison.
Most multibillion corporations are vulnerable in one way or another. Find the softest spot and hit there.
My way of doing it was very elegant, but don’t make it difficult for yourself. Just do what works.
Great comment, I fully agree sadly.
“Anyone with a soul tends to be ground down in a society like this.”
What do you think is the percentage of people in this category in the western world?
> 3) Do you recommend music during the trip? I want to listen to The Dark Side Of The Moon.
If you have depressive tendencies, I would recommend something less dreary.
I’ve often found that a lot of the classic recommended “trip albums” leave a lot to be desired, especially for a beginner or a sensitive.
Don’t get me started on how everyone was expected to watch “The Wall” the first time they tripped, when I was growing up.
I’ve listened to a lot of musics while tripping, but the one that I came back to the most is Ultramarine’s “Every Man And Woman Is A Star”
https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLp_FYHmA_nKgbxMY7WG1hZDDmAuBqVERb
It strikes the right tone: nothing particularly intense or groundbreaking, but the pacing is good, with each track having a different vibe, but all of it vaguely uplifting and wondrous.
For more intense trips, I have fond memories of The Orb’s “Orbus Terarum”
If you are in the U.S. I hope that you are careful not to take psychedelics laced with fentanyl. It is a real risk.
A guy I volunteer with finally had his first “real” girlfriend about six years ago, in his early 60s, and at long last had an actual sexual relationship with a female human being. Fortunately I did not have to hear about any of the details of this from him (I learned from a mutual friend, and the guy hinself alluded to it to me, and I met the lady). So you have more than 30 years before you should consider giving up.
Since I worked at McDonald’s for my first job many years ago, I can tell you that you should worry if you CAN relate to your coworkers there. Not every social discomfort is due to your autism.
Why don’t you get a job as a janitor? Ideally a union job. You could be around people in a limited way, and do things that cause them to appreciate you, like unlocking the door when they have lost their key, and doing something small but genuinely useful would cheer you. You could gradually learn add-on skills in building maintenance, and get a live-in building maintenance job, and then you’d have a place to live of your own, and if you have a place of your own it is a lot easier to find a girlfriend. You could be the surprisingly smart and educated janitor (and then building maintenance guy), instead of being the surprisingly socially inept office guy.
Thank you everyone so much for the kind words, detailed advice and great recommendations, it really means a lot to me and is greatly appreciated.
“How does working at McDonald’s benefit you exactly? Do your parents kick you out if you quit?”
As Rob alluded to, me being at home all the time on the laptop/phone was causing my relationship with my parents to deteriorate, they are both retired and were sick of me constantly being in the house. My psychiatrist signed me up for disability benefit from the government, but it’s only a small amount of money I receive each week so I got the job for extra money. Also, the LSWM gold bugs on Zerohedge and the Bitcoin maximalists on Twitter are trying to convince me that a hyperinflationary collapse of all major fiat currencies (USD, EUR, GBP, JPY etc.) is imminent and that I can become wealthy by buying precious metals and Bitcoin now while they are still cheap (giga cringe, I know). Although your vaccine analysis has me now doubting this scenario since any reduction in the global population (and advances in AI/technology) will be highly deflationary NOT inflationary. So maybe I will end up using my savings to buy something else instead of silver and Bitcoin. I also thought that the job may help with my loneliness and anxiety, though it’s difficult to decipher whether or not it has helped. Finally I wanted to train my innate immunity against COVID as Geert recommends. And what better way than to be surrounded by a bunch of vaccinated co-workers who are constantly sick!
“If you have depressive tendencies, I would recommend something less dreary.”
Thanks for the recommendations, although to be honest I’ve never been into obscure relatively unknown music artists. Maybe I will try some of the more uplifting Floyd songs (like the ones written by Gilmour). Or maybe some of the mid-sixties psychedelic-era Beatles albums (Rubber Soul/Revolver/Sgt. Pepper/Magical Mystery Tour) or “Pet Sounds” (the album that inspired Sgt. Pepper) or some Jefferson Airplane, The Byrds or The Mamas and the Papas.
“If you are in the U.S. I hope that you are careful not to take psychedelics laced with fentanyl. It is a real risk.”
I live in Europe so hopefully this won’t be a big risk, I will certainly be taking precautions though. The guy I asked will be getting it from his spouse’s close relative, they seem like fairly trustworthy people.
“A guy I volunteer with finally had his first “real” girlfriend about six years ago, in his early 60s, and at long last had an actual sexual relationship with a female human being.”
I’d better give up my junk food diet and start eating super healthy and exercising so that I still have a libido and functional penis in 30 years LOL!
Good sense of humour! (and the name–lol!)
I liked Kareninca’s suggestion of janitor->building maintenance.
I dunno if there’s something like that in Europe.
Farmers in France and Germany also need help, I think.
There’s also some help-desk companies, in Southern and Eastern Europe (for low salaries) who need native speakers (of German, French, English…). You just move and work there for a couple of years; you won’t be able to make any savings. Maybe that could help with social experience…
The jobs per se are not great of course.
It is good you’re getting out and interacting with people even though it is very painful. I don’t know you but a lot of my pain stems from the fact I find talking to people excruciatingly difficult. The more you do it every day though the easier it gets. Kareininca’s idea of a janitor job is good, I wish I’d gone down that route, at least you’re moving your body. It’s not natural to be sitting at a desk all day.
With psychedelic drugs I would start off with a low dose and stick with music that you like even if it’s cheesy pop music. On the much higher doses it’s better to go with more trance like music. Boards Of Canada are very good.
The goal is not a sexual relationship, you secular dolt, it’s marrying someone of your own race and having a nice family. Sixty is too late to be playing with young kids.
The secondary goal is to see your kids grow up to marry eugenic and upstanding members of their own race, and giving you grandchildren that look like your own grandparents.
Sixty is definitely too old for that shit.
I will not sugarcoat, this incel with tourettes is probably fucked. That may not be nice of me to say but at least I’m actually honest about it
Quote: “You will need to reverse the “progress” of the past 200 years.”
You fool really think problems can be solved by going back. Forget it. Whenever a new technology is implemented, it’s impossible to remove it without cultural collapse. We have to go the way, if we want or not.
Whole mankind have tainted its souls. We have failed as species, as society, as humans. We deserve punishment as hard as possible.
We were made to be explorers, warriors, caregivers of our family members, do all our activities in communion with the Gods… Instead, we live like industrially-farmed animals ourselves. No matter we are miserable.
Each of us has been sent here in Midgard to strengthen our soul by being tested, and accomplish tasks and rituals (even unknowingly!) together with the Gods. Regardless of what religious tradition one follows, the definition of “Good” is not a full belly, and living to the age 110 (with descendants weeping nonsensically at the funeral). It is to build a great soul, ripe for the picking / selection to the next level in the game / promotion to angel or demon. Some of us are here for a defined time, like a temporary contract. Some of us are yanked when we fail a test.
The Gods used to test our strengths; nowadays they test our weaknesses. Imagine unbounded technological progress… it would lead to a combination of Wall-E and Idiocracy. Having an easy life with no tests, no opportunity to strengthen one’s soul, is a curse and a trap. We would degenerate into Calhoun’s Universe 25 ( https://www.victorpest.com/articles/what-humans-can-learn-from-calhouns-rodent-utopia ) in short order. We already are.
Observing history, I have come to realize that the Gods are infinitely creative. I suspect they will come up with something we cannot even imagine now, that will push mankind off the track to self-destructive progress. I realized everything is meaningless in the end, like the sheet of paper with a test after the grade has been assigned. So I am applying myself to life fully, without a care about the fruits of my action. You know the Sponge Bob character that you said feels ennui from the Satya guna? It was still Tamas. Once attachment to results truly disappears, then ironically one is the most effective in their action.
Some time ago, I asked the Allfather: “What’s the meaning of all this?” And that evening, on Amazon Prime, my fingers navigated towards an obscure anime movie with a stupid-looking poster, and a nondescript title (“Hells”). I later found out that the title of the original manga in Japan was “Hell’s Angels”, but the second word was dropped because it had nothing whatsoever to do with the motorcycle gang.
That movie is a very good description of how our world functions.
Yes, most people are indeed NPC filling and demons placed here to torture us.
Yes, there are ways to “graduate”, even if it appears impossible at first sight.
How intriguing. It is of course completely coincidental that the timestamp has repeating 17s, the 7th prime, stopping one short of 3*6.
Only a fool would think that the creator God would want sapient species to evolve closer to Him by allowing them to create their own realities reflecting their freely chosen beliefs, while still experiencing the consequences of their actions according to the laws of dharma and karma. Science knows practically everything, including that 68% of the universe is dark energy, where obviously nobody lives and nothing happens.
All high-status people know that God is ridiculous because the Bible is believed by LSWMs in flyover country, who lost the Civil War to Federal immigrants, and have continued losing it to progressively darker shades thereof ever since. The Bible thumpers lost to the real God of Progress (towards rat utopia): she is a Black lesbian G13 living in DC.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hells_Angels_(manga)
https://mangakakalot.com/chapter/hells_angels/chapter_1
Prison planet vibes. I’m sure we’ll all get along just fine!
It would help if there was an understanding of the toxicity the internet breeds.
Everytime I see a child hunched over an iPad it feels like a loss. There is enough research to show kids should delay having any sort of device for as long as possible.
Im not a parent yet, but the parents I know feel they need the tablets, like there kid will exist in the room otherwise.
I can’t help but feel this is a major connection, it’s only going to get worse as each year we see adults who accessed the wasteland younger and younger.
Congratulations on reinventing Anastasianism, you tree-hugging racist fuck.
I for one would rather hug a tree than a browneyed.
Just saying
Fucko’s racism is of the post-ironic variety, where you feel like it’s so absurd you can never be quite sure whether he means it or not, even though he completely means it.
My racism is meta-ironic, where I’m always simply saying: This is a way of viewing the world. I’m an absurdist, I think nothing has intrinsic meaning. Things have meaning because I decide they do, even though that is absurd for me to do.
For what it’s worth, I would rather hug a pig than a human being. I think all human beings are inferior to pigs and I wake up every day first checking whether there’s a new COVID variant yet that’s going to kill everyone.
As the hazel eyed child of blue and grey eyed parents, I’m honored to have him comment on my blog despite being subhuman myself.
If your parents are light eyed but you’re a browneyed, one half of your genes came from someone other than the people you consider your parents.
Equality belief destroyed the world.
the equality believers let women work and vote, causing the labor markets to get extremely saturated and for wages to halve while retarded child logic policies made it farther than ever politically because an extreme majority of women are congenitally optimized to advance themselves socially at all costs while leaving men to worry about the practical ramifications of their fantasies.
From there, emotional feel-good equality bullshit led to the import of infinite enemy races, diluting wages while draining the coffers of all the welfare money the women voted for.
Money was appropriated to pay scientists to go to the enemy races’ homelands and improve their agriculture to breed infinity semipeople (see: https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Green_Revolution ), who then promptly skyrocketed in population and destroyed the whole earth with their new industrial activities.
Now we have kids committing suicide because they see this hellscape and want no part of it, or because equality believers told them men and women are so equal they can become each other, and thus had their genitals surgically amputated because a white coat priest told them their soul was born in the wrong body, all on top of the existential despair of living in a global metropolitan impoverished shithole full of coal black nigger demons who they are prohibited by law from noticing the inferiority thereof (see: https://portal.research.lu.se/en/activities/in-sweden-a-researcher-is-being-prosecuted-whose-research-confirm ).
Equality believers -> mass graves
Blackskins -> mass graves
Women -> cages
“Equality is not true” becomes the western world’s “namaste”
Another :17 timestamp; Odin is busy today. Must be tired of Stormfront’s feminism.
Genital amputation by white coat priests is what happens when you let the black coat rabbis take just the tip. The Chosen People can’t help but haggle you down, goy.
Yes! (great post)
Dostoevsky suggests the same thing: live (almost) like a peasant (“muzhik”), and that will save you from the depression.
A very strong scene in his novel, Demons (“Besy”), where Shatov gives this as a solution to the self-destructive force of depressed(?), Very-High Status White Male, Nikolay Vsevolodovich.
A HIGHLY recommended novel.
BTW, we could combine some comforts and living off our physical bodies.
Children are unhappy because society has intentionally created a bad world to live in, and they become trans because their teachers tell them that’s a good way to respond to unhappiness.