As an addendum to this post: Heathenism never really went away, because it’s a fundamental organic part of what we are. It hides in plain sight. This photo above comes from a Dutch children’s book.
When you look carefully at it and admire the serenity, then you realize that what you’re looking at is just religious iconography. The idea that we need to “reconstruct” paganism is almost as stupid as the idea that it ever died. It retreated from the conscious mind into the subconscious. There it lives within you like dormant seeds, that will germinate and rise towards the surface when you make the conditions right.
But I wish to return to another subject. I consider this the most important post I’ve ever made. The external universe is intrinsically deceptive in nature. Most people, especially women, understand this at some intuitive level. High functioning autists don’t, so they come up with stuff like Effective Altruism.
The photo above illustrates an important principle too. I got it from a friend. You focus on what scares you or angers you, you will end up with more of it. You focus your attention on what you like and express gratitude for it, you also end up with more of it.
There’s this old tale of the European who asks the Indian man how he thinks the world is created. He says, well the entire world is carried by elephants, standing on the shield of a turtle. Alright the settler asks. So what is the turtle standing on? On top of another turtle, the man responds.
“Haha it’s turtles all the way down.” The guy thinks to himself. But in reality, he’s just saying that you have to stop staring in the same direction. This to me is very reminiscent of the particle experiments carried out in Switzerland. Just build a bigger circle, crash smaller particles at each other and we will FINALLY understand the nature of the universe! No satisfying answer will ever come out of that endeavor, it’s turtles all the way down.
I’m increasingly convinced that the world we experience is generated on the fly, not unlike how the Minecraft map grows as you explore more of it. There is obviously some delay involved and the whole thing is designed to maintain plausibility, but what you witness around you is inherently deceptive.
But if you suspect that this is how it works, then you’re also just going to come to the conclusion that you can generate ever greater horrors by endlessly staring in the same direction. Biology works strangely similar. If you look at everything that happened from late 2019 to today, you can observe that this entire pandemic is a self-fulfilling prophecy.
From the birth of this virus in Wuhan due to an insane attempt to “predict” the next pandemic, to the suppression of competing benign respiratory pathogens through social distancing that made us all vulnerable to infection, to the mass vaccination experiment that made the population vulnerable to constant reinfections, the virologists and immunologists engineered the horror show they wanted to see at some level. When I explained this on Twitter, Leonardi blocked me and hid my comments.
Because he knows it’s true. It’s not that they’re trying to kill us all. It seems to me it’s something far weirder: They’re manifesting the horror show they crave at a subconscious level. At a subconscious level they want the horror story, where something bad happens, everyone does what they say we need to do, from following the arrows in the supermarket to sticking a cork up your anus and then they are the brave heroes who save the day.
But it follows from this, that from 2022 onwards, most of the people continuing to gaze at the horror show, are “right-wing populist antivaxxer conspiracy theorists”, like yours sincerely, who could not accept these indignities. They openly told us they wanted to create the ugliest thing possible, a new social contract (the “new normal”) in which social interaction takes on the role that sex had for Victorians.
At a subconscious level we hate them for it and want it to blow up in their faces. So the more you keep gazing at it, the more horrifying things you’re going to stumble upon (example: IgG4). I literally just don’t post about most of the stuff I’ve read lately and I try to stop myself from reading more about it. The darkness was never my choice, it was imposed on me. But I try to actively expel the darkness now.